Loving/Liking Sucks

Was just thinking that loving or liking someone really sucks! It feels like a huge game which begs the questions: Why can't it all be laid out? What's so bad about showing your hand? I mean, okay, so you're likely to get hurt, and that'll happen regardless of putting all your junk out there, but if you take out all the game-playing bullshit, you're left with honesty and truth...aren't you? I'm honest about how I feel and still, there's games.

Then again, maybe it just needs to take its course...I mean, we've only been "talking" for a few days and I shouldn't feel like one missed day of conversation - conversation that doesn't usually amount to much - means anything. Or, I could be rationalizing everything and making excuses. Aaagh! I hate games and feeling like I've been or am being played...I don't want games. I want what's real and it seems to be eluding me yet again... Man, that sucks...